cot - and did - but got no sleep. I felt as tho' there was a partial
maniac in the room behind me and I knew Auntie's dead body lay in the room in front of me.
And just before dawn is such an awful hour. Sure enough, Ed
began to rave again & shake his arms & feet & call me
& talk incoherently about Nina
& what I must say to her - for- getting that she must not see
me & know I was there. It was awful. Finally he was able
to get up and walk around (he was too weak to drink water some
of the time) and I felt queer. It began to get light and I went out
and walked up & down the street - but it was cold. Finally
Ed sat down in the kitchen with
me and talked. He began to mention Auntie
for the first time. Said he had done everything he could for
her.&c &
1895
cot - and did - but got no sleep. I felt as tho' there was a partial
maniac in the room behind me and I knew Auntie's dead body lay in the room in front of me.
And just before dawn is such an awful hour. Sure enough, Ed
began to rave again & shake his arms & feet & call me
& talk incoherently about Nina
& what I must say to her - for- getting that she must not see
me & know I was there. It was awful. Finally he was able
to get up and walk around (he was too weak to drink water some
of the time) and I felt queer. It began to get light and I went out
and walked up & down the street - but it was cold. Finally
Ed sat down in the kitchen with
me and talked. He began to mention Auntie
for the first time. Said he had done everything he could for
her.&c &
1895
cot - and did - but got no sleep. I felt as tho' there was a partial
maniac in the room behind me and I knew Auntie's dead body lay in the room in front of me.
And just before dawn is such an awful hour. Sure enough, Ed
began to rave again & shake his arms & feet & call me
& talk incoherently about Nina
& what I must say to her - for- getting that she must not see
me & know I was there. It was awful. Finally he was able
to get up and walk around (he was too weak to drink water some
of the time) and I felt queer. It began to get light and I went out
and walked up & down the street - but it was cold. Finally
Ed sat down in the kitchen with
me and talked. He began to mention Auntie
for the first time. Said he had done everything he could for
her.&c &